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BRIDGE TO NO FEAR

To me the Golden Gate Bridge represents the bridge to no fear. This beautiful bridge is in San Francisco, a city that from the outside I saw with fear but once I crossed into it, I learned that fear was a bridge to no where and I needed to change my perception. I had to create an Agape love for reaching my full potential and turn fear into faith.

My journey to San Francisco, CA began when I was 21 from my small hometown of Watsonville CA and it was all thanks to my older brother Fabian. Fabian is adventurous, has a heart of a gypsy, loves art, and loves to analyze things as if he were Salvador Dalí, in a very abstract way. He is a man I trust and love with all my heart. I admire his passion for art and for the way he see’s and lives his life.

Back at home in Watsonville, it was very normal to see the walls of our kitchen painted in different colors, Fabian was always changing things around and of course I would follow his lead. My parents didn’t mind as long as we would paint it back to its original color. He was always painting, drawing or working on cars with his buddies in our back yard. He has always made me feel loved and protected by expressing to me how much he loves me and that he will always be there when I need him. He is a man of a few words but when he says something it’s because he means it.

My desire for San Francisco began when I was in High School, Fabian would always take me to Museum’s in San Francisco. This was a good hour and half trip North from my small agricultural hometown of Watsonville. We would visit different museums like the Legion of Honor Museum, the Wax Museum, Cable Car museum and my favorite the MOMA (Museum of Modern Art) of San Francisco. I always looked forward to the weekends when I was able to get away with my brother. Thanks to those trips I fell in love with San Francisco. By him sharing his love for art, he inspired me to discover agape (love) for a life full of adventure.

After graduating from Cabrillo Community College, I got accepted into FIDM (Fashion Institute of Design and Merchandising) a private Institute in San Francisco. With the help and support of my brother and my parents, I decided to take a leap of faith and move to the big City. It was a bit scary at first, moving from a small town like Watsonville because it was my first time living on my own.  My apartment was in Downtown San Francisco on Stockton St and California St. It was a perfect spot for a single young woman like myself, I could walk everywhere and discover the city.

Moving to the big city sounded exciting, but the first couple of months I would go back to my apartment crying feeling home sick. I remember feeling like I was living in a different country. Being on your own is not always easy. I decided to walk around and get lost in the city just so that I could get use to it, of course always in safe areas. One day while I was walking around, out of nowhere I heard a “Chente” song (famous Mexican singer Vicente Fernandez) coming out of small apartment. You have no idea what a great feeling that was. It was as if my parents were there with me because they would listen to this music ever since I can remember. At that moment I knew that God was watching over me and He made me realize that He (God) and my parents were always with me in Spirit no matter the distance. My homesickness had gone away, because I knew that I was no longer alone.

After that enlightening day I woke up the next morning and decided I had to toughen up and I asked myself, “Why am I here?… “This is for my future, I am so blessed to be here, I need to take advantage of this amazing opportunity and grow into the strong, faith filled woman that God wants me to be”. San Francisco didn’t feel like a different country anymore, it was home. No matter where you are living today you have to say it’s home or else you will feel homesick. That big city that seemed scary at first had become the place where I found my calling and the love of my life, my husband (my Chuku) I will talk about him on my next post, it gets better.

My advice to you is, Don’t be afraid, fear will only cripple you instead of grow you and do what your heart tells you too. Remember that you will encounter a lot of bridges in your life. On the other side it may look uneasy, unstable or something that you may be afraid of, but the only way to get further in life is by crossing those bridges or else you will stay in the same place and not reach your full potential. Always have an Agape love for conquering your fears and for discovering what’s on the other side of the bridge.

Next Stop: Discovering True Love: My Chuku

Isaiah 41:10

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will up hold you with my righteous hand.

 

 EN ESPAÑOL

Para mí, el puente del Golden Gate representa el puente hacia no tener miedo, este bello puente de San Francisco, la ciudad que desde el exterior yo la veía con miedo, pero una vez  crucé ese puente tuve que aprender que el miedo no me iba a llevar a ninguna parte. Aprendí que una vez cruzando este puente necesitaba cambiar mi percepción. Tuve que crear un amor Agape para alcanzar todo mi potencial y cambiar miedo en fé.

Mi viaje a San Francisco, Ca comenzó cuando tenia 21 años y todo gracias a mi hermano mayor Fabian. Fabian es un hombre aventurero con un corazón de gitano que ama el arte, y le encanta analizar las cosas como si fuera Salvador Dalí, de una manera muy abstracta. El es un hombre al que yo amo y confío con todo mi corazón. Admiro su pasión por el arte y su manera de ver y vivir su vida.

En nuestra casa de Watsonville era normal ver las paredes de nuestra cocina pintadas de diferentes colores, a Fabian le encantaba cambiar siempre las cosas, y yo siempre lo seguía en todo. Él siempre estaba pintando o dibujando o trabajando en coches con su amigos en nuestro patio trasero. No sólo dibuja muy bien, pero también tiene un gran corazón. Él siempre me ha hecho sentir amada y protegida, pues siempre me ah expresado cuanto me ama y que siempre estará ahí cuando lo necesite. Él es un hombre de pocas palabras, pero cuando dice algo es porque lo dice en serio.

Mi deseo de ir a San Francisco empezó cuando yo estaba en la escuela secundaria. Mi hermano siempre me llevaba de paseo a Museos en San Francisco. Se hacia como una hora y media de viaje hacia el Norte desde mi pequeño pueblo donde se dan las fresas, Watsonville. Nos gustaba visitar diferentes museos, como The Legion of Honor, el Museo de Cera, Museo Teleférico y mi favorito el MOMA (Museo de Arte Moderno) de San Francisco. Yo siempre tenía ganas de que llegara el fin de semana para salir a pasear con mi hermano, claro cuando se podia. Gracias a esos viajes me enamore de San Francisco. Gracias a que el me compartió su amor por el arte y me inculcó la pasión y el deseo de descubrir el agape (amor) por la vida es que me decidí mudarme para San Francisco.

Después de graduarme de Cabrillo Community College, me aceptaron en FIDM (Fashion Institute of Design y Merchandising) un Instituto privado en San Francisco. Con la ayuda de Dios y el apoyo de mi hermano y mis papas, me decidí a dar un salto de fe e irme de Watsonville para vivir en la gran ciudad. Al principio me daba miedo, pues era mi primera vez viviendo sola. Yo vivía en el centro de San Francisco por la calle Stockton St y California St, un lugar perfecto para una joven como yo.

Mudarse a una ciudad grande como San Francisco se escuchaba muy emocionante pero recuerdo que me sentía como si estuviera viviendo en un país diferente. Vivir sola por primera vez no es nada fácil y menos en una ciudad grande. Los primeros meses regresaba a mi departamento llorando. Me sentia triste por que extrañaba mi hogar. Al principio me gustaba caminar en la ciudad para perderme e irme acostumbrando, claro siempre en lugares seguros. Mientras caminaba un día de la nada escuché una canción de”Chente” (Vicente Fernandez) salir de un pequeño departamento. Pues desde Chiquita mis papás tocaban su musica. No tienes idea lo que sentí. Fue como si mis papás estaban ahí, Y Dios estuviera cuidandome. Definitivamente me alegró el día. Nunca lo olvidaré.

Después de haber tenido esa experiencia que Dios puso en mi camino decidí a ser fuerte y me dije a mí misma: “¿Por qué estoy aquí? Esto es para mi futuro y bienestar yo soy muy afortunada y bendecida y necesito aprovechar esta oportunidad y realizarme en la mujer de fe que Dios quiere que sea. No tengo que estar triste ni tener miedo. Pues desde ese momento me di cuenta que San Francisco ya no se sentía como otro país si no que era mi hogar y el lugar donde descubrí mi llamado y a al amor de mi vida, mi esposo (mi Chuku) Te platicare más de el en mi proximo post. Esto se pone mas interesante.

Mi consejo para ti sería que no tengas miedo y haz lo que te dicte tu corazón y recuerda que siempre te vas a encontrar muchos puentes en en tu vida. Tal vez al otro lado del puente te parezca incómodo, inestable o algo que alomejor te da miedo, pero la única manera de llegar más lejos en tu vida es cruzando esos puentes o de lo contrario te quedarás en el mismo lugar y no alcanzaras tu pleno potencial. Siempre ten un amor Agape para superar el miedo y para descubrir lo que hay al otro lado del puente.

Proxima Parada: Descubriendo El Verdadero Amor de mi vida, mi Chuku

Isaías 41:10

Así que no temas, porque yo estoy contigo; no desmayes, porque yo soy tu Dios. Te fortaleceré y te ayudaré; Yo hasta abrazarte con mi diestra victoriosa.

 

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16 Comments

  1. JFlo | | Reply

    Oh my Goodness- this is so crazy, on point, hilarious and God that you would post this today. You’ll see when we give you your bday present 😉
    Besitos.

    • admin | | Reply

      I am so curious comadre. Thank you for reading. See you soon

  2. Liz | | Reply

    I saw once with showboy when he was still working in dallas in house of Blues n the first time I saw u I thought u are so beautiful but more then just the superficial I could tell u also have a beautiful soul….keep being that beautiful person u are n keep posting things like this because so many of us go through so many things similar to urs n Is always good to hear it from someone else….god bless u and ur husband!

    • admin | | Reply

      Hi Liz, thank you so much for your kind words, that means alot to me. You are so sweet. Thank you for reading my post’s I hope they inspire you to keep on conquering. Always have Faith because God is in control. God Bless you and have a wonderful weekend!

  3. Deysi Lewis | | Reply

    Muy Lindo mensaje! Que Dios te siga llenando de mensajes de Algeria, inspiracion y fe.

    • admin | | Reply

      Hola Deysi! Gracias por tus lindas palabras. Que asi sea. Bendiciones

  4. Ana | | Reply

    Omg I know exactly way you mean. I’m from Salinas and moved to San Jose to go to SJSU in 2000. I was homesick too and felt very lonely the first few months. I’m so glad you are doing this. Many young Latinas will identify themselves with these blogs.

    • admin | | Reply

      Hi Ana, I’m so glad you can relate. I love and miss Salinas and the Bay Area. Just remember that God has a purpose for you and don’t be afraid to follow your dreams. Thanks for reading.

  5. Luz Garcia | | Reply

    I love your blog and love to hear more about you. :)

    • admin | | Reply

      Thank you Luz. Please stay tuned I will be posting new stories every Thursday. Thanks for reading!

  6. Nicole | | Reply

    What a beautiful post!!! Reading this reminded me of the first time I met you…Mingo told me you lived in SF and went to FIDM. We had so many things in common and I’m so thankful we met in Dallas! Love you!

    • admin | | Reply

      Thank you so much for reading this amiga, means the world. Yes, how can I forget… and we are still going strong with our friendship. It’s amazing how people with different upbringing can have so much in common. Love you dearly

  7. Maricela | | Reply

    Definitivamente eres fascinate a mi casi no me gusta Leer y tu historias me tienen alli pegada Leyendo que mas sigue…simplemente me Encanto muchas gracias por Pensar en la Gente de habla Hispana y escribirlo en Español..ya quiero estar Leyendo como conociste a Shoboy…y gracias por Inspirarnos pero sobre todo por siempre tener presente a Dios 👏

    • admin | | Reply

      Hola Maricela, gracias por tomarte el tiempo en leer mi post y en dejar tus comentarios. Espero y te gusten mis siguientes historias que describen como Dios es el que nos ha guiado cada paso. Bendiciones

  8. yudit | | Reply

    Que lindos tus mensajes, sobre todo el saber que Dios es quien nos da fortaleza a seguir luchando y lograr nuestros sueños. Que Dios bendiga siempre tus propósitos.

    • admin | | Reply

      Hola Yudit, muchas gracias por tus lindas palabras y por leer mi blog. Con Dios todo es posible. Bendiciones!

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